Recipe for an ordinary mind (my favorite books)

  • Riding Lessons
  • Anansi Boys
  • Out of This Furnace
  • The Gathering
  • The Kite Runner
  • Water for Elephants
  • The Last Town on Earth
  • My Side of the Mountain
  • A Thousand Splendid Suns
  • A Prayer for Owen Meany

Friday, July 29, 2011

Sometimes you hold your own hand

This is the mopey post. Every blog needs one, right? I am in a grade a funk right now. I need that "big brother" I dreamed up a few decades ago. Or perhaps even a very compassionate log. lol. There are too many people leaning on me right now, and nobody backing me up, and my foothold is for crap. For everyone who could back me up, someone else needs them more. I think about the lyrics from Lean On Me "no one can fill those of your needs that you don't let show." I've always had a love/hate relationship with that song. It's a sweet song. I wish I believed it. But that has not been my experience. In my experience, true story, when I show my needs to my family, as a child, they flat out told me not to do that again... and it hasn't really improved from there.

No, I'm not depressed. I'm just really, really tired. It's flattering that people seem to think I can handle "it," whatever "it" is this time, but it's getting really old. Whether you can handle it or not is stupid, anyway. When "it" happens, you handle it. Especially if you know nobody is coming for you.

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